Are you terrified yet?

You shouldn’t be. But before the end of this essay you will be. This one is in my area of expertise.

There is a very real existential threat to America going on right now under our noses. It’s in our Churches, it’s in our schools, it’s out there walking around on our streets, it’s marrying our daughters, eating our food, drinking our water, and working our jobs–just waiting for the right moment to strike. It shakes me to my core.

Do you know what threat I’m talking about? Let me give you a hint.

I’m from New York. I grew up just over the border of the Bronx in a place called Yonkers. I went to school in the Bronx. I was in the 4th grade when 9/11 happened. I remember that day with stark, vivid clarity.

In my own personal pre-9/11 America I was more interested in computers, robots, and programming; my dad actually thought I was going to wind up as an engineer for quite a bit. When 9/11 happened I noticed, in my young mind, that there was something fundamentally wrong with America. Something with my world view was broken, and I needed to find out what it was and fix it. I was afraid, I was scared, I was glued to the TV, but most of all I was curious.

That’s where my love of politics and international relations started. Right there in the smoke and dust settling on lower Manhattan when I had to, in white-knuckled terror and apprehension, drive across the George Washington Bridge with my family to go to my younger cousin’s birthday party in New Jersey.

3,066 Americans have been killed in terror attacks since 9/11. 2,902 were killed in the largest terror attack on American soil, the September 11th terror attacks perpetrated by al-Qaeda.

I spent a lot of time as a kid wondering what the odds were that I would wind up in a terror attack. I still, as my parents suggested to me at the time, try my damnedest to avoid packed crowds. What are the odds of today being the bloody day? The day I get blown up for someone else’s war against globalization? At the time I am writing this (11/12/16) there have been 5541 days since 9/11. So the odds of today being that fateful day is 1 in 5,541. Roughly 0.02 percent.

Terrifying. Fucking. Odds.

What are the odds of me actually being killed in the attack? Not 400 miles away in a different city buy actually, physically there. The population of the U.S. is 318.9 million people. 3,066 is .0009% of 318.9 million.

So I have a .0009% chance of being in the right place at the right .02% of time. Multiplying that together my odds are .000018%. I’ll round up to .00002 to really shake my own boots. Two ten thousandths of a percent. Odds are even smaller for a smaller-scale attack.

Are you terrified yet? I am. But not of dying in a terror attack. Odds are better that I get in to a car accident. As you probably know if you’ve read my older posts, I don’t drive.

So, why, if a blast-hardened New Yorker like myself isn’t afraid of a terror attack is the majority of discussion regarding our national security about terrorism. Namely it’s because not everyone is privileged like me and gets to spend 4 years literally doing the math on what our biggest threat is.

People see what’s on TV, and they see a lot of people dying because guys from one culture are attacking guys from our culture. What’s more, some people from that culture are immigrating here to escape it, and a few guys that want to bring that culture over here and detonate a few of us have slipped in through the cracks.

I don’t blame anyone for being terrified of terrorism and voting for the guy with the most brutal option (the Donald). That’s human nature–that’s what any of us, myself included, do when we don’t have all of the facts and let feat get the best of us. We over focus on the unlikely option and lose out because if it.

I have some real bad news. Immigration policy can’t stop anyone from a foreign country who wants to detonate a bomb from getting in here. We can’t stop someone who is already a citizen from going lone wolf and detonating a bomb for the same reason as the foreign guy. You’re right, the terrorists are already within our walls. Don’t worry, as I just said, the odds of them hurting you or a friend are slim-to-none.

Still worried? Completely understandable, that’s not sarcasm, I get where you are coming from. Considering that I work half a block from the White House, aka terrorist target number one, and take a train near there every day, I have more of a reason then most of you to be worried. My odds are slightly worse.

One policy solution, as advertised by our President-Elect Donald J. Trump, is to put all Muslims on a registry.

This is an entirely inexcusable policy and the suggestion of it as a policy, in my opinion, disqualifies an individual from the office of President on moral grounds despite the suggestion of the policy not meeting the test for impeachment or treason.

Why do I think this? I could argue that the majority of terror groups throughout the course of U.S. history were not associated with Islam or the Middle-East in any capacity, or that the frequency of terror attacks by right-wing assailants is higher than that of Jihadists post 9/11, or that incidents of terrorism have decreased dramatically since the 1970s, I could argue that not all home-grown terrorists operating in the post-9/11 terror culture are Muslim, but I wont.

As I said in a previous post fear drives voting behavior and by voting for Donald Trump most of the land-mass of the United States (as opposed to the popular vote) has voted to, at the least, tacitly consent to putting certain groups of people on lists for their perceived  security. As I just displayed, they’re not actually at any real risk.

There is a very real risk to this nation’s security from putting people on a list because of their religion. Why? What you are consenting to is the forced enumeration of people based on an cosmetic characteristic. If you’re at peace with that, you have to either be at peace with enumerating Jews, Christians, LGBTQ, Conservatives, Liberals, et cetera, or you have to believe that Muslims fundamentally deserve to be treated differently from all other groups.

If you are at peace with forcibly categorizing and labeling people by force of law, you are probably a ‘law and order’ voter. Generally speaking you are folk that don’t want to see protests turn loud or violent and want to see security screenings at places you think are threatening. In general, there’s nothing wrong with that. Protests are ideally always peaceful, and ideally we’re secure, but ideals don’t always pan out.

If you’re ok with making Muslims register as Muslims because you believe in law and order ask yourself this: what order does the law create?

By definition, a law creates an order. That’s why the saying is ‘law and order’. Then, the idea is that the government enforces the order of the law. Once you have all the Muslims signed up on a list, is there anything to enforce? They’re already on lists. So, the law must be creating an order outside the scope of enumerating Muslims. What’s the law ordering, then? We don’t know for certain, but based off of the fact that Donald Trump wants to register Muslims because of terrorism we can safely assume he wants to use these registries to contain, control, and possibly reduce the Muslim population within the United States.

Now ask yourself this: what happens if [adjective] start to commit acts of terror?

I’ve already linked to plenty of resources that show terrorism in the United States has a varied and storied history. From liberal groups, to evangelical groups, to Christian groups, to Muslim groups. It might be Muslims today, but tomorrow it might be you.

Are you terrified yet?

If you believe that Muslims fundamentally deserve to be treated differently from all other groups, you are probably a Nationalist. Generally speaking you are folk that want the country to stay with the culture and makeup that is has–namely based on the makeup of your local area. America is great, and I want it to continue to be great, but America is great because it is highly adaptive and tolerates change well. Think about it, we are handling shifts in the economy and population far better than Europe, the Middle East, Africa, and Eastern Europe. Asia hasn’t really been impacted yet, it seems.

If you believe that Muslims fundamentally deserve to be treated differently from all other groups, ask yourself this: how will putting Muslims on registries change the Nation?

It won’t. Muslims will still be here, just on registries. Muslims will still come here, because many of them are leaving countries where they’re put on lists for being a part of an ethnic minority or for worshiping the wrong type of Islam. So what is the law really trying to change about the Nation? We don’t know for certain, but but based off of the fact that Donald Trump wants to register Muslims due to terrorism we can safely assume he wants to use these registries to control the makeup of the Nation.

Now ask yourself this: what happens if [politician you don’t trust] becomes President?

I’ve already links to plenty of resources that show this country has a diverse groups–liberals, conservatives, Evangelicals, progressives, and more. It might be Muslims today, but tomorrow it might be you.

Are you terrified yet?

I am.

I am terrified. I am terrified we have thrown fertilizer on the seeds of authoritarianism. I am terrified that there is now a precedent for not just persecuting groups an administration does not like but for doing so while questioning the fundamentals of peaceful transition to power, while questioning the integrity of our democracy–one of the least corrupt in the world. I am terrified of delaying the independent court until a politically ideal time in order to bias that court.

I am scared because without belief in our already free and fair elections, without trusting the independence of the court, we have nothing holding up the fabric of our Constitution and identity. Without the fabric of our Constitution, without our identity, without an independent court, without free and fair elections we are open to any form of rule. The form of rule we will have in a few short months is one that wants to fundamentally change our Nation and our laws to allow for persecution of any group it does not like.

There are those of you reading this that will site slavery and internment camps as examples of us being here before, and of us getting through. I hear your argument, but I disagree. We have never had a point in our history where we are at risk of having no court, no faith in our elections, and an elected official willing to use this to persecute civilians. It is not just a change in law, but a change in our character that terrifies me.

I am scared because without leaders who will, upon losing an election and justly conceding defeat, are too elite and too insulated to use their position to call attention to how dire this situation can be.

Mainly, I am scared for my friends.

I grew up with a Muslim friend. He was one of the most quick-witted, funny, and energetic people I ever had the pleasure of knowing. I have gone to school with Muslims, none of who ever did me harm and many of who helped me in class. I have been to weddings with Muslims, one of my closest friends is married to a Muslim and her husband is also a close friend. I have celebrated Muslim holidays with them. All of these people have only made me a better man, with a better understanding of the beauty and struggle that is diversity. I am scared for them because, if the black stars align they could be disappeared. I, by my association with them, could also be disappeared.

I am relieved that Donald Trump’s transition team is filled to the brim with Washington insiders (called it). I recognize these names and while I disagree with pretty much all of their policies, stemming from the Bush era, I have some faith in some of them to understand the cliff we are on the edge of and expect them to hold us over back from falling–if only because stability benefits their trade. I hope that new leadership emerges in both parties that restore America’s faith in government, in the courts, and in elections. I hope they rework our electoral system to better hear the voices of Americans (more on that later). This all remains to be seen. Not all clouds have silver linings. Not all playbooks lead to victory.

I am terrified my hope is misguided.

I am not afraid of being killed in an attack, or hit by a car, or personally victimized. I am afraid of the outside chance we lose our Nation’s soul.

But I am one average person with little power. Only together we can ensure the salvation of our soul.

Are you terrified yet?